I'm crying right now but they are happy tears. I can't thank you all enough for everything you've done for me. You have stuck with me even through me battling with depression and anxiety. Scratch is saying that me stealing your chocolate and eating it is a bad word- how? Thank you. Thank you all so much. I- I've decided something. I'm staying. There will always be toxicity on this website and every website. I will not disclose the people who told me that I'm not shading properly and that I'm stupid for using gray to shade (stupid I know-). I just want everyone to know that I have mild-severe depression and severe anxiety. I have figured out that depression and anxiety can take over my brain so much so that I say things I don't mean. When I go into what I call 'Depression Attacks' that can make me say things I do not mean at all. DON'T WORRY. I AM GETTING HELP. I PROMISE THAT I AM FINDING A BETTER THERAPIST TO GO TO. But, I've been thinking about something. Everyone knows who Ned is and if you don't go read @Nednilclan 's profile to get a small blurb of her. I remember talking to her a few times. Even though she was battling brain cancer she would be so positive and always make me laugh. I want to be just like her. I want to be happy, even through the hard times. If I ever come close to death, I want to be smiling all throughout it. I remember Ned as the strong woman she was. She fought for her life for 2 years and then it was sadly lost. I want to be happy for as much of my life as I can. I am the only person who can fix my depression and anxiety. I've been told by my current therapist that she will try and help but I am the only one who can truly get rid of it. I will most likely have anxiety for the rest of my life due to some trauma in Middle School and stuff (classmates harassing me, teachers yelling at me, a teacher slapped me once, so on) but, that does not mean that I can't gain control of it. And also- ALMOST 300 FOLLOWERS?! YOU GUYS NEED TO STOP FOLLOWING ME lol. I seriously can't thank you guys enough. I was originally going to do a 100+ DTA and then a 200+ DTA but who knows, by the time I get the designs done I'll have 300 followers. I'll do 3 different things for 300, 4 for 400, 5 for 500, and so on. I also need all of you to go follow @MildlyFabulous she has made life bearable. Without her, I probably would not be here right now. She has stopped me from taking my own life many times, even if she didn't know it. She is also hecka talented and deserves 10x the followers she has. She is so fun to talk to and makes for the best friend I could ever ask for. (and yes, that vent I made has been removed but, I'm kinda glad it did because I was going to delete it anyway lol. ALSO THANK YOU SCRATCH FOR HANDLING SELF HARM PROPERLY!! There were links in the message I got from the ST to websites where you can go talk to a trained professional therapist online which is like amazing, Thank you scratch! The ST did something good for once :D)
