ok I need to do this while I'm still brave enough to do it, because I've been trying to work up to it for months and it's not working, but now I finally feel ready, but I know I won't in a few moments. I can't write out anything emotional right now, I'll come back for that later, I just need to get it out. I'm going to leave, at least on this account, basically, but it's best for everyone. I'll elaborate more later. <3 ok time to *elaborate* 1) this account is just- like- so boring, you know- the boring oc, the awkward username, the most boring profile ever, a strange combination of trying to seem mature and also trying not to seem over-mature combining to make a weird personality, all the self-insults, all the insecurity, all the rants, hiatuses, stuff like that- it just feels messy, and even if I did want to be famous, it would definitely not be on this account. dreamyheart's always been dreamyheart, and I've always been me. two seperate identities: an account and a person. but I feel like I'm becoming this account, and I really don't want to... you know, be this person, this weird dreamyheart person, like- idk if you get what I'm getting at but basically I don't like myself on this account 3) ROLEPLAYS. so like all of a sudden a bunch of people were leaving my main rp, East Hill Highschool. and i was like, huh, because I thought my rp was rlly fun.. but then everyone was like 'oh this is so dramatic' and like idk if it's just me but to me rps have to have drama to be fun. So I guess my rpgs are just really boring, and not at all I'm blaming my 'leaving' on the people who left. 4) school, yes, school of course, it just gets worse and worse as time goes by and idk if I have that much time to tend to this account anymore. so basically, I don't really like this account anymore and don't want to be stuck here. it used to be something I loved, but checking and replying to messages and making projects has become torture/work and yeah ;w; that's basically it - now for actual detailsss - I'll have a final leaving project soon - I will be officially leaving on december 1. - I can't say whether or not I'll still be active on one or multiple other accounts. I have one that's part of a secret account gang/group that I'll be on into december, but really, I just don't want people, you know, trying to guess if I have a new account/accounts or what they are, because the point is that I want to leave this account and reputation behind. - also I love all my friends and fans <33 you guys are amazing and got me to where I am now, and you've just been so kind and supportive and amazing, I can't name everyone so I won't try but you guys are the best <3 - I'm gonna tell my closest friends my new account, but that's a secret. I don't know how i'm gonna tell them it without people seeing, but it's gonna happen <3
