hey everyone. so i owe you a huge explanation and there are some things i need to address. here's the truth: i don't actually know timothee chalamet. i don't live in nyc, i don't have a summer house in the hamptons, and i'm not who i said i was at all. i'm not 15, i'm 13. my name is maddie, and thats pretty much the only thing about me that was true. so i guess i'll start from the beginning. a few months ago, my cousin told me about scratch. and i've said this a couple times, but i decided to join just for the fun of it bc i was bored and it was quarantine. i noticed that there were a lot of "aesthetic" accounts, and i wanted my account to be like those aesthetic accounts, but with a twist. so i made it about advice. then i said that i was 15 because i wanted people to know that the advice was actually coming from a trustworthy source and i didn't know if people would take advice from a 13 year old, so i went with 15 instead. after a week or 2, i had a dream that timothee chalamet was my brother. so i thought, why not pretend on scratch that he's actually my brother? at this time, i didn't have too many followers yet so i thought it would be harmless, and i also wanted something to make me more interesting i guess. so i came up with the whole family friend story. as my follower count grew and grew, the whole timmy lie grew too and i sometimes felt like i was living a double life. but i couldn't say anything because then no one would trust me and i would lose all my followers that i worked hard for. so i kept going. then in mid-september, i found out what shifting was. so i shifted to a reality where i was pretty much "scratch maddie" and timmy was my actual family friend. i scripted that he's exactly the same there as he is here, and everything about him was the same. so i went and i learned about some of his favorite things and stuff like that. (he's a really fun person and he's absolutely amazing by the way lol) so i used what i learned from shifting to make my story more realistic. pretty recently, i've realized one of the many problems with this. i've gotten so close to a lot of my scratch friends, and they all still thought i knew timmy. and i felt bad keeping it a secret for any longer because i knew so much about them and it didn't feel right knowing that they thought they knew me but they only knew "scratch maddie" and not the real maddie. so a couple days ago, i told some of my closest scratch friends about the truth and that i don't know timmy. and now its time to tell all of you. i'm really sorry for all of this. i really do feel terrible for lying, but once i started i just couldn't stop. i got stuck in quicksand, and the longer i waited, the more quicksand there was, to the point where i couldn't turn back. i just want to say i'm sorry for absolutely everything. i don't want sympathy or forgiveness. i don't expect it to be honest. but i just want you to know that i am truly sorry and i feel terrible about it all. over the past couple days, i've been doing some thinking and after a lot of consideration, i have come to the conclusion that i'm going to be leaving scratch permanently. there are a couple reasons for this: 1) i constantly feel pressured to give you guys advice and when i don't upload in a while, i feel bad that i'm not giving you guys the advice you need quick enough. 2) scratch has been taking up a lot of my time and i spend way too much time on scratch because i always feel the need to check my inbox. and i've noticed that this is really bad for my mental health because it makes me rely on validation from others more than from myself, and also it makes me spend more time on a screen which is bad for my eyes and my brain and my physical health in general. 3) i need some time to clear my head and focus on myself after this whole timmy thing i'm really sorry about all of this. i hope you understand. i've taken down all of my timmy related projects, and i'm keeping my advice projects up because they can still help some of you out. i'm also keeping the comments in my studios on so you guys can still hang out there. i'd also like to encourage you to help out people who ask for advice on my studio. if someone has an advice request or needs advice, either give them advice if you know its good or just give them the link to one of my past projects that could help them. i might log in once in a while, so i won't be gone forever. plus i'll still be active on pinterest (maddieblairdicaprio) so you can stay in contact with me from there. thank you guys for everything, and once again i'm sorry. scratch was really fun and i'm going to miss it. but i think its important for me to stop being so addicted to scratch and spend more time in the real world, off of a screen. thanks for everything, but my time here is over and my scratch chapter is ending. i love you guys so much. you'll never understand truly how much i appreciate you. xoxo, mads / maddie / gossip girl
