A lil icon of me :] don't think I'll use it on scratch rn but might use it somewhere else. - - - vent warning ? ish ? I'm sure a great many people can relate when I say 2020 has been the hardest year of my life so far. Back in I think February, one of my family members went through a time where their emotions were super spiked, and they were super zealous, which was pretty unlike them. It got to the point where me and my siblings went to stay with other family for the night a couple times, to ensure our safety. That was a weird couple weeks. It was almost like they were drunken ? They hid my mom's sandal somewhere odd and put part of the coffee machine in the fire pit... They were hardly sleeping. Eventually they had to be taken to the hospital to be medically sedated. No one was able to go in the hospital with them because of you-know-what. Thanks be to the One, they've since returned to normal and we've all moved on. Over the past couple months I'd been losing motivation to do anything entirely. I couldn't make myself wake up before at least 10AM, and I started skipping most meals. I'd start school right after waking up, but then sit on my phone for hours, not finishing school until late evening, if I finished at all. I stayed up watching YouTube for hours upon hours until I just accepted that that was my schedule, and stopped even caring. I was always tired and frequently in a gloomy mood. I told everyone I was fine an awful lot of times. I'm not sure I've ever meant it. That season of my life isn't over, but I'm working on ending it. When I'm down I find a way to make myself smile. I've listened to a lot of music from Kirby and Animal Crossing, (both games I've never played) but what can I say, they make you feel good. :] 2020 Hasn't been my year. It probably hasn't been your year either. Between the major things above, the political tension in America and the whole world, and of course our good friend, Big C19, Miss Rona- it's been a pretty bad start to the decade. But I've got hope yet, for this year wasn't all bad. I discovered my love for mcyt and it's wonderful creators, though I might spend a little too much time watching them. And most importantly, I started talking to who are now some of the closest people in my life. (You know who you are. Love you nerds.) They've been with me during the saddest- and what would've been the loneliest, if it weren't for them- part of my life, and I owe 'em big time for that. 2020 has had a lot of ups and downs. Mmmaybe a few more of the latter. But this decade holds a lot of promise, and I'm ready to take on the next year one day at a time. Come at me, '21 >:) Anyways, after all of that, I've got no problem saying: Good riddance, 2020. - Madison, 12/16/'20 - - - Art: me Music: Animal Crossing New Leaf - 1PM Code: none
