-- I try to tell close friends, I really do try, but nothing can change the fact that my heart is broken. I'm trying to pick up the pieces but I can't find them-they are gone. I've realized that some people never cared about me, some didn't even care if I would just die, so I've decided that I'm just gonna go off to another place and find those pieces of my heart-it may take a lot of time, but I have a lot of that, and it seems that no one would care if we departed anyway. I'm hurting inside, but I will try not to mess up like I have in the past and show it. I feel like I will never be enough...and maybe I won't, but that's fine..I don't vent much, I tend to bottle up my feelings until they make me just want to die. I listen to people vent, and I relate in my mind. I never tell anyone my true feelings. Why? Because they wouldn't understand...I have decided that I'm taking a hiatus on scratch and th, I'll be on once in a while to check on things, and respond to messages, but won't be on much, thanks for your time <3 -- And as in "everyone" I know a few of you still care about me, and I just want you to know that ilysm <3333 --
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