okay. so. hello. first of all: thank you so much for 300+, and for the top love (it fell off after about a day but that's fine haha xD). thank you for all your kind notes, all your support, and all the amazing things that have happened in the past few crazy days. this is, honestly, the most insane thing that has ever happened to me. yes, I am on the well-known side on my main account, but that was built up over several years of work. I never expected something I made to just... explode. somehow, I'm suddenly this inspiring figure at the start of this new movement of ranting accounts, and- can we back up? inspiring? ME? that's... that's honestly a crazy idea. but it happened. but just as much as I would not have expected the blowup, I would not have expected the backlash, either. on my other account, hate comments are to a minimum, and there's really nothing to hate about me. I put in the work, the effort, and while the result is not always perfect, it's the best I can do. on this account, however - sharing controversial opinions on a daily basis is bound to result in some disagreement, not all of it polite. and it hits me. hard. I'm a very weak, sensitive kid - I used to cry a lot when I was little. part of the reason I started making projects here was because I was scared of hate. and I guess I knew that there were always people who disagreed with me, but when it's all brought up coldly and harshly by someone with no idea what their words can do... it hurts. second: I don't have any more project ideas. I'm getting a lot of suggestions, but to be honest, a lot of them have already been discussed enough. like mass reporting: making a big deal out of it will just show the mass reporters that what they're doing is working. nothing can really be done until the scratch team comes up with an effective way to stop it. f4f has already been addressed so many times, and nothing you say will stop people from following each other. advertising is a reality in the world; there will always be people who are self-interested. none of these topics really speak to me; i don't have any mind-blowing thoughts to share on them, and I don't want to repeat the same thing someone else said and get recognized for it. my first project was the best: it was the longest one, and it fit together like a story, not just a random collection of thoughts. a few of the other ones, like the being depressed for attention one and the art theft one, I still stand by and will defend. but some of the other ones... they weren't really my best work. I guess I just felt like I had to post more content because I had so many viewers, but some of them were really a mistake. like the message to the scratch team: that was really a minor and petty issue for me to bring up, and at that point I was trying to find things to talk about. and I don't want to do that, because it'll push the trend in the direction of "think of something inspirational to say every day, and if you can't, whip something up whether it's good or not". I honestly don't have anything to say right now, so I don't want to pressure myself to make content without any purpose other than getting attention. so I guess this is just a heads-up that I won't be making projects at the same rate as I have been, and probably won't be able to reply to comments for a bit (new scratcher restrictions, I'm sorry xD). I do have one project in progress that I think is a real issue to be addressed - that will probably be out within the next few days, but I can't guarantee anything else in the near future. I'll come back to this account if there's anything else that I need to talk about, but for now, my posting schedule, when it comes to rants, going to be dropping to one project every few days or week. third: I'm not sure about this one yet, I'll have to ask around (let me know if you're interested!), but in order to make up for the reduced posting schedule, I may consider turning this account into a collab project with some friends on my main account. NO NOT A SHARED ACCOUNT OKAY i would be the only one with access to the account (putting that in caps xD) - just letting some other people write things and having them featured on this account, and no longer considering this persona "me," rather a profile where many people post their different thoughts. let me know what you think of this idea, and if you'd want to help with it! <3 and that's it, thanks for reading xD <3
