i just want silence but i still hear you yelling when you are not here you are thee one creating your own problems and so do i but i want a pause you call me a disapointment and only see me as the first try before the better one it doesn't mean that i don't care because i laugh at what you say,comparing me to my sister i wanna do great things too i struggle too you can't predict what i think,what i will do you are so,so pretentious to even think that you could you are the only ones autorized to talk your problems out,autorized to complain because you are "the ones that birthed me,the hand that feeds me,the one that works everyday " i wish i had at least the good right to be leaved alone i wish i had justifications of why am i complaining why am i even complaining i wish you could at least try to understand but seems it's too much for you when i tell you something the thing happen yet you still don't trust me when you see or hear something alarming you do nothing but laugh i wonder sometimes what should i do for when i thinks about all the bad stuff i could do to other for the few moments i am horrified by it for when i am after just not caring about it i wish i could just stop thinking about these stuff i wish i could stop doing what i wanna do to the other to myself,even if it's on a lower scale
i feel like i am having some kind of déjà vu
