Hello it's Ash, and I'm here to explain what happened recently. I want to start off with; it wasn't a joke. I was planning on ending my life and people are mad at me and I understand that, but it wasn't a joke it wasn't to be funny or prank, and I understand why people would be mad but I literally got sent to a mental hospital I was hospitalized. I don't know what you want me to say to prove I wasn't joking like. Next I'm going to explain what got me to that point I guess. So it starts off with my depression and su cidal thoughts had gotten worse before that happened and the studio where I said I wanted to be called Alexis and stuff it was it was internalized transphobia and some of the reactions I got did trigger me a bit more. It was difficult to want to stay alive. So I sent the letter. My irl friend called crisis and I got sent to the hospital where they sent me to a mental hospital for a week. I was there for a little over a week. Please don't be worried don't be upset I love all of you and don't be mad at me because it wasn't a joke it wasn't funny it was a prank and I don't know how you want me to say that like it wasn't to be funny so quit saying it was cuz it's just making me feel really unsupported and honestly I kind of don't want to be back.
