for all you folks too tired to read my entire ramble, the gist is that i get too nervous to come back or say something about my mental health declining so i just took a break without saying anything,,, ;u; yup.
howdy howdy!!! i'm (kinda) back :'0 dont worry im very alive just an explanation and some updates! ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ sorry ive been inactive for a while!! (4~ months) cue the sharp inhale so basically.... i haven't been feeling all that great; and the big honker called school. those two things. what i mean by not feeling all that great is • i felt a bit fake (aka identity crisis) • just generally didn't have the motivation or energy to do anything and school: • quarantine and not being able to see my friends was draining the life out of my extroverted braincells. please. i. need. hugs. please. • im not good at time management, so whenever my totally-smart-very-chonky brain decides "ah man here we go again; lets just do everything on the night before it's due", well, guess what, i totally failed to take into account that i would have to do everything on the night before its due. (im, as you can tell, what you'd call a ditzy bagel). and obviously i was stressed by that, but having no energy, i did not change a thing about that. during june, i did art fight. it was fun, but thats when my mental health REALLY got tugged through the mud (not because of art fight). i dont want to go into too many details, but the gist is: my already low energy levels were almost gone, but at that point i was halfway through art fight and i wanted to finish it. and my brain wouldn't stop thinking in circles and i felt way too fake for my own comfort i decided i needed a break i took that break during- september, without saying literally anything ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ from september to now, i kind of wanted to come back, but id look at my art and go "thats not enough for an art dump", or "that doesn't look good" and then in october i found the hololive rabbit hole (courtesy of a certain rabbit...) so being distracted by that, i totally forgot that i should maybe post or just people know im alive i did do art during that time though! (actually, earlier this month i did a couple of pieces but i got too nervous about not saying anything about being inactive that i just decided to not post,, yeah i know... ;v;) but today i just decided to toss that mentality out the window and made this on the spur of the moment. hooray for not considering actions! ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ i'm probably not going to be super active, but i'll be commenting now and then, maybe doing some art dumps, and actually being active on my other socials! i might change my username since ive been considering that for a while, but ill say something about that this time, ^^'' i might leave scratch in the future, but i dont want to just switch accounts right now and leave this on an abrupt and sour note hope yall understand!! i'll be posting soon ;u; ━━━━━━━━━━credits━━━━━━━━━━━ soundtrack - 4pm // animal crossing new horizons
