youre gonna make it, youll be fine. stay for me. if my attempt worked i wouldve been gone 9 months ago. please stay theres so many people that will miss you. i lost my bestfriend because of this we dont need to lose anyone else. youre doing amazing. i can always talk to anyone that needs to talk and ill delete the chat later so noone knows i can even give you my email for anyone that needs to talk i know im not a therapist but i wanna help. i just wanted to share this because i reset my tracker today and i dont want anyone to feel that pain
"Do not tell me if you killed yourself your best friends would not sit at your lunch table for days staring blankly at your seat wishing you were there to fill the air with laughter. Do not tell me that even though you two never got along your siblings wouldn't break down in the middle of class because they started talking about your favorite subject in school. Do not tell me your Mother would not stare at herself in the mirror with trembling lips wishing she could be bringing you home from the hospital rather than escorting you out in a casket to the nearest graveyard. Do not tell me your father would not begin working night shifts to distract himself from the ungodly hours of the night talking to what's their face on the phone because you're so in love. Do not tell me your s/o would not go into your room and put on the last hoodie you wore trying desperately to imprint your scent onto their skin so they never forget your smell. Do not tell me your friend would not stare blankly at the gym wall after the principal announces your death to the entire school making no sound and trying to convince themselves that this is just another one of your impractical jokes. Do NOT tell me how the stars would still appear and the sun would still come out. Do not tell me the earth would still rotate and the seasons would still change because without you no one would want ANY of those things to happen." i didnt make this but i want everyone to know this.
