hey. rose here. ... so lately my mental state has been at an all-time low. im losing faith in myself and sometimes i feel like giving up on life. ... but i won't. there are so many people im living for, you guys, my irl friends, and my family. so ill keep going. but i don't know how much longer i can take this. ... i believe i have depression. i don't know for a fact but i do know i show signs of it. im not eating or drinking water as much as i should. i don't go to bed until the late hours of the night. im constantly stressed and thinking about committing oof (using 'oof' in terms of you-know-what) or just hurting myself. but when i think about committing oof or hurting myself, i think of the many people who love me and care for me. ... they wouldn't want to see me gone? ... right? ... sometimes i doubt the love people have for me if they actually like me and care about me. do they secretly hate me, find me annoying, and just...wish i were gone? ... im going to take another break from scratch. i know i know, i just got back but...i feel like it's for the best. i need some time to take care of things. ill be back soon...hopefully. ... signing out for a while, rose <3 my break will start next Monday. please excuse me in rps and mark me as on break. ill be back by March 20th.
