I just need to vent - They know My parents know I've been hiding something They have fights about trans people in front of me ... It's painful I can't get out of my head I was taught to love God but now I'm not so sure... I was an atheist once for a month then my mum forced me back into it not by a***e but by guilt ... I sort of wish she had done it by a***e they'll force me back into femininity I can't tell them I'm trans I've had to call myself feminine at least ten times this week it hurts and my parents think I like feeling this way maybe I do it gives me a reason to be in pain they think they know a lot of stuff they think they know me they think they know what's good for me and when I ask them to stop when I draw vent art when I'm feeling like nobody cares about me they don't understand they think I'm just a self pitying brat they think it's cute ... ITS CUTE TO WATCH ME SUFFER ITS CUTE TO WATCH ME HURT MYSELF ITS CUTE TO WATCH ME FEEL THIS WAY ITS CUTE TO MAKE ME LIE TO THEM ITS CUTE TO MAKE ME WEAR A MASK OF MY OWN FACE god I'm everything they say I am I'm just so tired
