⟶ so, about six days ago, I said that I was leaving scratch cause I thought I was stupid and some more not-so-positive things about myself! I'm sorry for saying all this without an exclamation! so, here are the reasons for my sudden and maybe misunderstood actions. ✨ why did you un-share all of your projects? ✨ › the reason I unshared all of my projects was because, like I said, I was leaving. and so i felt insecure that people would steal my art when I have left and that's one of the last things I want to happen. on my old account that happened so I unshared all my art there and for a while I felt unsafe with having my art out in the public. that's the reason I unshared all of my projects! ✨ why did I say all of those negative things about myself ✨ › the reason I was saying all of those un-postive things was because of school and irl drama. ✨ irl drama ✨ › I don't want to tell you everything about the irl drama because privacy is a big thing, but here are some of the key things that made me breakdown. ㅤㅤㅤ⟶ my eldest sister was moving out and I was really depressed about that cause she understood me and would talk with me more then my other siblings and I felt like nothing after I heard she was moving away. ㅤㅤㅤ⟶ one of my "friends" was being a little toxic with her boasting and showing off so I felt bad about myself and started questioning the things I do like going on scratch and drawing and my other hobbies! (her art is godly and she loves showing it to me. maybe it's just my jealousy that make me think she's boasting... I don't know. maybe she is boasting and I'm still jealous. it's a confusing situation.) those are the two irl things that really hurt me so that's two other reason why I wanted to leave and I was being negative. ✨ school reason ✨ › the school reason is because things have been really stressful with my English assignments! it's been a confusing month so I've been stressed! T-T I think scratch has been one of the main reasons I have been just, not doing as well as I used to in school. so that's the last reason I said all those negative things and was leaving. ⟶ another reason is I had this huge crush on someone where it almost became unhealthy! haha... rip but I'm back! Everything is smooth sailing again. I won't be on scratch AS much but I'll still be here to talk with you and just support you if you need it! I am no longer talking with my "friend" (the one that was boasting etc) and it's almost like a big weight that has been lifted! and my sister moving away... well, I talked with me mum and she told me all the reasons why she's moving out and it turns out that her moving out will be a lot better for us and for her. it will teach her independence and she will soon be able to buy her own apt! as for the whole pressure and stress of school and English assignments, things are back to normal! I talked with my father about everything and he helped me! then the crush... haha lol... I have to get over it! oh, and I said "misunderstood actions" I'm the beginning, because maybe some people thought I was acting so negative and sad just for people to like me or say stuff to make me feel better about myself. that is manipulative and no one should do that! and that is not why I said all those negative things. my profile is a safe place for everyone and I was just having a breakdown and took it out here. I shouldn't have and it was wrong. I should have simply said I was taking a break! I'm glad though that I realized it was wrong and fixed everything up! :D once again, I'm so sorry for not telling you all why I was so distressed! I hope you will all understand just to confirm some things, I'm not leaving but I may take breaks! if I am taking a break I will make sure to tell you all! :)
