You probably know by the title but Im coming out. Im pretty sure Im pan. My story with the LGBTQ+ community begins when I was 3 or 4 years old. I was walking with my dad through the woods and I asked him, "Can two girls get married?" And he said yes. So I told him that I wanted to marry Sophia. (She was my bet friend when I was in pre school) And he laughed and told me that Id probably change my mind later. I know, that had nothing to do with LGBTQ alright. It was just a moment that I remember. As a kid I was a bit homophobic. I didnt really know anyone in the LGBTQ community, I mean, I hardly knew it existed. I only knew what gay meant when I younger and I always forgot the word for lesbian. But that was all I knew. So yea, as a kid, I thought queer people were sorta weird. But as I got older, I realized that wasnt true at all. On the first day of 6th grade, I was at recess and I was sitting on a bench under the playground. My current best friend walked up and sat on the bench across from me and told me. "I want my friends to know that Im bi." And I didnt mind. I supported her. But then, covid happened and I joined Scratch. One night, I stayed up late on Scratch and I wandered into a LGBTQ studio (I did alot of roleplays at this time) and I began to do some research. I looked up some flags, and the definitions of terms I didnt understand. This was probably a few months ago, so life was pretty boring and I guess I wanted some kind of conflict. So I decided I needed to start questioning. And I decided I was probably bi. Why did I do this? I was bored. So yea, at first, my questioning wasnt genuine. But I was doing a lot of role plays at the time, so I started trying out role playing as boys. And boom, gender dysphoria. So honestly, Idk how you even define gender dysphoria but basically, I wanted to be a guy. And whenever someone slipped and called me a guy, I liked it. So I decided I wanted to identify as male irl for a few days. And I tried to tell my mom. And it was soo awkward. So I left it alone. I left the whole questioning thing alone until last month, though it still stayed in the back of my mind. But I began to realize some different things. I had a crush on a girl, which Id never really had before. And I thought that maybe I could actually be bi. But I tried to push it away again, because I thought I was faking it again and I didnt want to cause issues for myself. But I had alot of time to think and I realized I wasnt faking it. So I did a bit more research and realized, 'Hey, I dont think Im bi, I think Im pan!' And please dont ask how, it just felt right. Anyways, if youve made it to the end, youre a legend. Type in your comment if you want to lol. Also, please tell me if my gender dsyphoria was normal, because sometimes I still feel that way- Also, if youre homophobic or anything, just unfollow ;) Dont want any of you guys here. Thanks for being here <3 Love you all Mythical, Out
