It's been a while since I've done anything on this website. But I'm just mentally exhausted... I'm always tired, I don't have the motivation to do stuff and it makes me so mad, I'm slowly loosing interest in drawing and I really don't wanna, because it's always been my dream to make amazing art ever since I was little. I'm tired of my mom yelling at me, insulting me and calling me names and comparing me with others and saying I can't do anything right... I can't stop crying.. I just want a break from home... My friends and teachers began to notice what's going on and insisted me to go to my school counselor. I gave in and told her everything, and she encouraged me to get a therapist....So I did. I visit her every Wednesday, she's really nice..<3 In the end, she came up with her diagnostic...Apparently I have a thing called(i don't remember what the first name is called but it starts with a P) Depressive Disorder, and Anxiety.....Guess I was right...and I may have to go into medication..I hope not, I don't wanna... Everyday I think...."Am I being too sensitive??" "Am I annoying everyone??" "I'm just wasting their energy and time aren't I?" "Are they tired of me?" "Am I being overdramatic??" "Do I even matter?". I'm trying my absolute best to be active on here again just please...be patient with me please I'm doing the best I can..Thank you <3
Also...My parents don't know I have a therapist bc I want this to be private....Something I can have time for myself.
