half-leaving <333 see desc!!

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Heyhey so I don't really know how to explain this!! I'll try my best, haha!! So I've really learned a lot about myself while I was on this site. Mosty pros, but we have some cons as well. Those cons, happen to be overshadowing the pros. One of the cons is envy. I get so worked up about my art, the way I talk, the content I post, the way I rp, and more. This leads to seeing these awesome people, who seem perfect. They have flawless art and animation, and I see them as someone that I want to be. It can go out of control though, to the point where I overwork myself into trying to create art that I enjoy just as much. I also learned that I have moderate anxiety, which kinda scared me. I've always been one to worry a bit more than other people, but ever since I joined scratch, I have multiple things on my mind. I'm afraid to express myself on this site, in fears of someone getting angry with me, etc. However, one of my greatest fears is ignorance. Whenever I see someone flat-out ignores a comment I've made (I mean a question, or something) I immediately get the feeling they hate me, they think I'm annoying, I did something wrong, etc. That just ruins my entire day. My brain literally says, oh way to go. You just made this situation 10x more awkward. I hate that feeling, and I'm sure everyone else does too :T Another thing is, I'm finding myself in desperation sometimes?? Idk how to describe it?? I'm extremely introverted IRL, and I'm usually excluded from a lot of things (absence of friends from covid, etc.) nowadays. Online, this goes into effect. Whenever I see someone who shares my interests, I immediately freak out, try talking to them, and publicly embarrass myself. I also do everything to prove that I share their interest. I post projects abt it, make statements abt it, etc. Then when I feel that no one notices it, its pretty soul-crushing tbh :'] Now I wanna get away from all this. I want to just chill and make art, without the stress and anxiety of it all. Without the envy and sadness of it all. I just want to viBE!! :] And so, I'm leaving this account. I'm changing my nickname, my username, and overall going to disappear. Only close friends will know my secret account. I just need a fresh start on this site, as it's the only actual social media site I use. TFCRP haha I'm not leaving Flurrygorse, not in a million years ;] Also, I promised I'd keep her for a long time. Now, here's the deal. Flurry left the clan. I'm not planning to rp with her too much now, as one of the main reasons she left, was so I could get away with this. Once she returns (I cant be sure, but she probably will) I'll be a lot more active with her. I will also be revealing my new account to the public then. Any other rps that are going to be happenikng soon will be preformed on this account. Otherwise, this account will be completely inactive :] The QnA - I will be answering all the questions in the studio itself, instead of the project! lmk if y'all have any questions!! Thank you guys for all the memories. I really couldnt've gotten through this entire year of scratch without y'all <33 Love, Moonie<3 - Febuary 2020 - April 2021