NOTE THAT THIS IS A DRAFT NOT FINAL VERSION!! guys.... i cannot explain how much this means to me. <3 before you ask, im ONLY on scratch at the moment, until i can do more professional recording and do it alongside my dad... its probably where ill stick ;) i dont think i can handle going anywhere else either so.. :3 sorry btw, i couldnt make it use the album cover to play every song in order. it just kept on bugging up so >w< so, this has been my dream for 3 years. releasing an album. it's only on scratch, it probably isnt the best quality and may not even be the same songs as when i may do a better version with studio one, and im an unpopular artist atm... BUT. i've put so much effort into every single song and being able to share it? i seriously am crying. its unreal. even though ive written over 25, released 18 songs on here... i picked out these 14 because to me theyre my favourites i guess. ive been playing guitar for 12 years. at the start, i hardly ever practised, and it was my dad's patience that helped me to work on my skills. eventually, when i finally got my own guitar i could keep in my own room.. i started getting better. i wanted to improve myself. i practised everyday, playing at least for 2 hours, sometimes 3 hours. during this time, my anxiety was getting worse, memories were coming back, i had my first break up, and i felt like i was losing myself. i didnt want to be here anymore, and my arms *as they still are..* were tainted with scars. and so i expanded myself beyond learning songs, to writing them. i realised i could use music as an outlet, as a voice for my thoughts, and express the pain i was in. over time, i felt ready to share some of my music here on scratch. its one of the safest places for me, so i decided to share some songs. i started with covers, but began uploading originals. the support was overwhelming. i had a dream for having my first album be called progression and having a bunch of songs... and now im making the dream a reality. it doesnt feel real, but... it is. and sharing this gives me hope. hope for myself and moving towards a music career, and also for others. i want people to be inspired by it, and get into music. learn an instrument, sing! but also, i want others who share my thoughts to know theyre not alone. and music for me is the best way i can express that. anyway, long story short, i love you guys so, so much and i couldn't have done it without you <3333 stay tuned for more songs, and my possible expansion beyond scratch!! ^^<33 TAGS:
Canva - album cover Garageband - recording program Me (XD) – music Now, a little artist's note for each. Unfortunately, i couldn't put all the lyrics in here because it was too long ;) Attention, All Students - this one i like, because its pretty relatable unfortunately. many students face struggles with school, and even though i tend to go well, the pressure i feel like im receiving (probably just thanks to anxiety but anyways) gets too much. Finally Free - this one i did for a school performance recently.. anyway, its about me having depression and anxiety, and facing so many aspects of life a young girl shouldn't have to face.. and learning to overcome the obstacles. and be okay <3 Flaws - this was mainly for a voice collab thing @musicaI- hosted... basically, its about my anxiety and depression drowning me, and only showing me the bad parts of me when theres beauty there *which i still struggle to see but anyway* <3 Game of Life - this was about someone i know... basically, she's extremely manipulative and has stuffed me around so many times in the past. the idea is that she wants to win, and is okay with destroying others to get there, and tricking people, that sorta thing ":) Go Away - this is one of my older songs, and about the same person in the aforementioned song *a few others are about her, not all included tho*. its about how she continues to hurt me, when i just need her to back off because she's destroying me. I'm Fine - this one's... hard to explain without just saying it. you can probably infer... its about me, to begin with. this song (and nine) gave me a voice about that kinda incident. he was a teacher, for me. i was eight. i was at school. and i still cry about it... Make Me Better Please - this one's all about bullying and its effect. about victims of bullying feeling in pain because they've been hurt so much.. for the victims out there tho, you arent the only one and youre not alone <3 Missing (Yet Found) - this one is about my ex gf... about all the things i wanted to do with her, wanted to experience, yet she just left. and at the time, she seemed like a missing piece of mY puzzle. its only now i can see that she belongs to somebody else's. Nine - similar to 'i'm fine', its about highlighting the stereotypes victims of s-a often face. i was eight, although was nine when i first told someone. afterwards, even tho they didnt say rly anything, i was so scared of being hurt for it its taken me another five years to regain my voice. anyway, if youre a victim of s-a you arent alone, and im here for you <3 Rise Again - this one is about one of my close friends, who always is there for me, when nobody else is. who keeps me going, who makes me feel loved and accepted. who keeps me alive <33 Save Me - this one's kinda just about wanting to d13 i guess.. and saying that someone could be the one to rescue me from myself. Stay - this one's not too personal (sucks going to the high school that nobody from your primary school went to except for maybe one person you barely knew at the time or whatever). it basically is just about best friends and one may have something go wrong with them, and they're both trying to hang on together :) Today's Youth - this is just a little thing i created out of nowhere really. about two young people being in love, highlighting what young people tend to feel, and then one d13s... not sure what else to say ":) Underneath Her Sleeve - this one is still one of my favourites, as its one of my older ones. i performed it for the first in-class performance after covid lockdown where i live (qld). and i was struggling so much, yet it was the first time i decided to take my jacket off. only two of my close friends realised the correlation between my arms and the song id written, plus one of them i sent a message just about a year ago when i nearly ki11ed myself, and it was only about a month or two after that which i performed it. one girl didnt quite realise (the one i mention in go away), and was like 'i wAs a bIt cOnCeRnEd bUt iTs a gOoD sOng' and didnt even bother checking in with me, even tho she also received a message that night... anyways, the song itself is about s-h*rm and s**cide and basically telling the story of what nearly happened to me, had i not given myself the chance to talk to my mum :'3 I know that was super long, but i just want to make sure i get it all in since this is a big release for me.. :) love you all, thanks so much again!! <33333
