For almost 13 years, I've identified as female. There's some fluidity, yeah, but I like flowers! Dresses! Skirts! But I've seen 7th grade girls. All they care about is giggling and gossip and otherwise only seeing a few feet in front of them. And 7th grade boys are gross and rude and athletic. Where do I fit? I am a female to myself, but I haven't seen people my age since last year.. and I'm going to eighth grade next year.. in person. People never liked me anyway. But now that I don't know if I'm female?? I'm scared to go back. I'm a teachers pet, an artist who draws in the corner, a musician, a nerd, and... well... a bit of a bully target. I'm so tall I'm clumsy. I'm so out of shape I can't run without panting. I rely on online websites like scratch to fix my mental health, and that's really not good for me. Heck, I'm writing this during social studies. Do I need a break from scratch? Maybe. Do I need to socialize? Probably. But what I need is to not be scared anymore.
