uhhh lmao guess what i did today!!!! finally!!! after so so long of a lot of everything!!!! i fIGURED OUT MY ROMANTIC ORIENTATION THIS IS WILD like i've known i'm ace for longer than i've known i'm trans, those were always certain to me. but bOY HOWDY trying to figure out how i experience romance was a NIGHTMARE i've known i'm ace since i was like... twelve, maybe? and i used the label for myself personally, but to like my family and stuff i pretended to be straight because yeah they wouldn't like me otherwise y'know? when trying to figure out my romantic identity, i thought like... i might like boys, then i'm "straight." but i usually felt a lot more aromantic?? except i had no clue if i even was?? if i even felt romantic attraction at all because Hey What Does That Even Feel Like Anyway? when i came out as trans (on here at least lmao, no one irl knows ~except my therapist~), then it was strange. because "straight" before meant liking guys, so am i still heteroromantic?? do i actually like girls??? and well i thought about it and uh no? i don't think i do? so then did i like boys??? i mean that sounded a little more feasible (*frantically googles "am i gay"*) but then it still wasn't quite right because i mean then what about enbies??? so i was just really confused this has been in my head for like a while already lmao and yeah i've always said "aromantic" cause it's easier, but it didn't feel quite right? so i thought. i'd learn about various arospec identities. aND BOY HOWDY the wAY that quoiromantic spoke to me my gOD Quoiromantic isn't really spoken about much (as is ace and aro identities in general), so if you guys don't know what it means, it's basically having a real hard time telling between platonic and romantic attraction, or not understanding the border between, or the line drawn not having any real meaning to you. Ok i think a quick google would explain this better than I can lmao but it sort of Made Sense to me? and then i dug a little further and you guys won't believe this you won't believe this but i actually found a thing and i read the description and it was Everything. like??? just a very sudden feeling of wHAT IN THE WORLD THAT'S ME hi. my name's creechur. i'm a trans boy, and i'm asexual and nebularomantic :) Nebularomantic identities are under the arospec umbrella, and are similar to quoiromantic, except for this: the identity exists because you are neurodivergent. You do not understand/acknowledge the traditional boundaries between platonic and romantic relationships, because you are neurodivergent. AND THAT'S ME GUYS so what does this label mean for me??? well, for me, it basically means that i'm just really confused. all the time. always. lmao. It means that if I ever have a relationship, I'd like it to be queerplatonic. I don't understand the difference between platonic and romantic gestures, I like elements of both of them. I don't know where the border is drawn, I don't know why it's even there, I don't really comprehend romance as a concept (as i infinitely prefer friendship), and I don't really care? When I like a person, am I their friend or am I in love with them??? Who Knows? Doesn't matter to me, because the rules don't exist, they're not important to me. I'd like queerplatonic relationships, when I'm older. We'd go on adventures, we'd have meaningful relationships, we'd do cuddly fluffy things in the most non-s*xual way possible because I'm still ace as heck lol. You could introduce me as your best friend, as your boyfriend, no one would really be able to tell and it wouldn't really matter??? so in summary my romantic orientation is What and wOW i talked a lot here lmao 100% understand if u didn't read it all and just came to look at the pretty colors. all of my flags :) (press space if u want to compare lighting/shading, s if you want to see the nebularomantic flag specifically for autism, h if you want to hide it) thanks guys :) i have no idea what is going on :) x credits art/code/incredibly long ramble - me song - whispers by jack stauber x i saw someone describe quoi/nebula as "not being sure if you're aro, or poly, or just really dense" and honestly yeah that's when i knew if this still doesn't make sense to you guys, you can ask questions and stuff i don't mind :) or preferably google some stuff because i'm still really dumb :)
