I just dont know anymore, ive wanted to do so much with my life but it almost always fails. from this, to film making to youtube. im so confused, i dont even really know who i am, after jack left scratch i didnt really know if i even wanted to do scratch anymore since this was the only way i could contact him. i dont even know why im doing this, its not like anyones going to see this, i could just be talking to a wall at this point. i hate it. i hate myself, streaming barely works, and nothing i do is fun. maybe this is all just temporary but i really dont know. i always fall into these depressive episodes and try to fully quit things like this but then im happy again and i come back. but i really dont know who i am anymore so whats the point of trying. ive purged my account of everything but this for now, but i might bring them back, who knows, who cares. i just want to be happy, but nothing i do helps...none of it...god i hate it...i hate everything at this point....all of it is torchorous. i just want all the pain to stop, im sorry to my friends on here, im sorry to jack, to deb, to arin, to thunder, to becka, haydn, all of them. I HATE IT....so screw it....goodbye
just read goodbye
