I've created many alts that I've used to take a break, but the more I use them, the more I realize that I just can't use this account anymore... I look at my friends' profiles, and they have people visiting them daily just to say hi... people follow them because they like them as a person, not just for their content... I'm honestly a bit jealous... As much as I'm grateful for all the followers I have here, each time I look at the numbers the feeling just grows more and more bitter... So many people who only follow me for my content... people that couldn't care less about me as a person... A lot has been happening lately... I've been trying really hard to hold myself together while things seem to fall apart around me... maybe I'm just too stressed out, maybe the anxiety's gotten to my head... But all this... it has to be my fault, right? I did something wrong... something to put myself in this position... maybe I'm just not trying hard enough to be social, I'm always afraid to talk to people so it makes sense... or maybe I'm just a bad person in general... how many people have I hurt, being as careless as I have...? I don't want to be here anymore... I've been having anxiety attacks on a daily basis, my head is spinning... I'm going to be moving to another account... this isn't another "secret alt", I'm actually moving this time... and I won't be coming back... I won't be giving out the username, I've already had someone track me here from offsite, just to make me miserable in what used to be my one and only safe space... I'll probably tell my close friends about this new account, but it'll likely only be offsite... If you need to talk to me, check my alts for activity, and there's a chance I may be online here on rare occasions to take care of older problems... otherwise, I'm sorry... I doubt any of you really care, but I might as well say goodbye anyway... (Edit 11/16/2021: You can find me at @Echolepzy)
