I feel bad venting, but I needed to get this out. I've been feeling really stressed and nervous and just so overwhelmed. A lot has been happening. I had cousins in town for a bit. They ARE nice, but they drive me crazy and they were here for over a week. They kept getting on my nerves, and I kept being able to hold it down, and to keep my cool. But towards the end of their trip, my nerves were frayed. I just couldn't keep going. I started losing my temper super quickly on everyone.... I felt horrible, but I was just so done. On top of that I've had summer camps taking up over half of my time. I've also been looking into the LGBTQ+ community. I learned a lot, and started thinking about who I was. The more I thought, the less straight I felt. I felt more demigirl and pan, but I still am not sure. I've been trying to figure this stuff out, and it's killing me. scratch and the internet have kinda been my outlet and my place to take a break, but my mom has been really restrictive over the devices. I'm feeling so lost and stuck and overwhelmed. It's been kinda rough. I have one friend, but we only talk through gmail cuz I don't have a phone yet. He's moving to the new school, and I'm feeling even more alone. I need a break from my family. My sibling won't give me any time alone, and any time alone is when my mom makes me help clean the house. I don't have any time to myself other than super late at night. Then I stay up late, and am exhausted and even more irritable in the morning. It's this cycle I feel like I can't stop..... Everything is piling up on me.... Overall I get stressed easily, but this is a lot... Sorry for the vent and stuff... I just needed to get this out...
sorry for the vent... if you have any suggestions on ways to cope, please let me know. I'm really stuck... :'(
