tw: abuse, being left behind/ignored, sv1c1d@l thoughts, h3ll) . .. ... .... ..... so alone so freaking alone it scares me nobody there's nobody here I can scream the only people who can hear me have told me that they wouldn't care "You can scream all you want. I don't care" hey, you!! my mom and dad don't want me will you take me in??? I love you why is everyone leaving?? they're all moving to different schools, houses, towns, states, countries. did I do something????????????? i'm trying to be good I want to be good that is all i could ask for. when you kiss me goodnight, my forehead stings for hours and I cry. it isn't like that for everyone just you I don't want you to touch me i don't want it it feels too much like him his touch. his heavy footsteps. his kind-sounding tone that i later learned was all a facade. his wild eyes. that evil, evil, evil smile that was probably sent from hell. I see all of it in you hes a human I know I just don't like that and i hate him forever you cant tell me its wrong because he hurt me so much he messed up everything and im so worried someone else will be next rooftops at midnight a sudden thrill face stinging and flushed with cold curls blowing with the wind thats whipping in my face an unsteady mind that has a thousand thoughts that it shouldn't have, just in this single moment. a city kid always knows that new york isn't the only city that never sleeps. cars pass my house even this late. and the tall buildings in the distance are illuminated. and I've made a decision I'll stick around a bit.
(1. its 3:16 now lol 2. the rooftop thing happened quite a while ago by the way)
