I woke up today I've got this stupid smile on my face Hop into my gamer chair cause I ain't got no time to waste I've got all these things I wanna do And now I'm on my way To make the greatest thing I've made to date Feel like I'm improving - finally making things that I don't hate Hope my motivation follows through But it's times like these where my mind has some things to say, oh Why is it hard to get through a single day Without a thought like, "What if you died today?" I wouldn't get to say That I woke up today But I don't think today's a making day All the things I've done have made me mad and I've just thrown away Every single thing I've tried to do It's not a making day It's time for me to find some games to play Keeping me distracted from my life so I don't think that way Maybe all the thoughts I have are true But it's times like these where my mind has some things to say, oh "Why create if others should take your place? You don't deserve this." Please redirect your praise to Someone less insane It's not a making day All of these tears are drying on my face Someone take me back to all the times where I could feel okay Doing all the things I wanna do But now I'm on my way To make a change or just accept my fate Can't escape the feelings for the moment - you just have to wait I think I'll apologize to you Those are the lyrics to Atsuover's making day. A song that I can heavily relate to. Especially that one line "Why is it hard to get through a single day Without a thought like, 'What if you died today?'" this line "what if I died today?" Is what I ask myself every day. And I'm tired of it. I'm tired of losing motivation midway through a project, and I'm tired of failing my classes because scratch is distracting me. So for a couple of weeks/months, I'll be taking a break. Thank you to all of my friends who helped me during bad times <3
