become more familiar with this mediocre human! how are you doing today? I'm really exhausted from a sleepover how tall are you? 5 feet 2 inches, assuming my measuring tape is accurate what color are your eyes? gray blue what is your zodiac sign? virgo when were you born? hMm must be careful of what we say OnLiNe do you have/want any tattoos? I want a few, but I doubt I'll have enough courage to get them anytime soon do you have/want any piercings? my ears are pierced. I find ear cartilage piercings intriguing who is/are your best friend/s? I wouldn't say I have a best friend what makes you happy? good music, knowing things will end up alright, embraces, when my waist is small, and feeling strong what are your top 5 favorite bands/musicians? I Don't Know How But They Found Me Porter Robinson Tomorrow x Together Autoheart j-hope ANYONE BUT OLIVIO RODRIGO I'M SORRY I KNOW IT'S RUDE BUT I'M SO FREAKING TIRED OF IT what are your top 5 favorite songs? christmas drag - iDKHOW polyrhythm - Perfume bicycle - RM magic - TXT I Know I Love You - TXT ft. MOD SUN what are your top 5 favorite movies? catch me if you can the map of tiny perfect things soul wait until dark cruella what are your top 5 favorite TV shows? marvel's runaways the owl house gravity falls to do x tomorrow x together run bts favourite person? IRL? my close friend [removed]. they live down the street from me and they'd better never move <3 favorite colour? black, red, or pastel brown. favorite book? waste of space - Gina Damico favorite animal? the quokka. favourite food? grilled chicken and pesto sandwiches. are you single? yup! how many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? yOuR mOmmmm ...2 describe your crush? tall with wild hair, creative, pure, in wonder of the world, and forever a child at heart in the best way describe your dream girl/guy? musical, slow to react, preferably tall (but taller than me should be easy to find), interested in fashion who was the last person you held hands with? my friend. we were pretending I was gay and we were dating at the movie theater so this guy I kind of know wouldn't know it was me (because he knows me as straight) we're idiots who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? probably my sister?? what defines a deep conversation would you kiss the last person you kissed again? imagine having kissed someone couldn't be me random fact about yourself? I'm obsessed with self-improvement and I'm (genuinely) devastatingly disappointed in my inability to speak korean, make music, and form abs. do you play any instruments? piano, ukulele, and guitar. (hopefully drums, soon >:D) what are your bad habits? gum-chewing, binge-eating, leaving my clothing in a basket rather than my closet or chest of drawers, weaseling my way out of tasks, and passively going through the motions of everyday life. are you outgoing or shy? yes. do you have trust issues? I trust teenagers too easily, while adults have to work to earn my respect. where are you from? 'merica. where would you like to travel? korea; I love the fashion and food. have you ever been arrested/expelled? nope! I'm quite cooperative at school. what makes you angry? passive emotions and actions, not listening to others, thinking I've completed my set of tasks and remembering I have more to do. what does the most recent text that you sent say? I haven't send a text since before the end of the last school year. I have no idea. do you believe in luck and miracles? I don't think so LuCk Is WhEn HaRd WoRk MeEtS oPpUrTuNiTy do you believe in life on other planets? no. do you believe in love at first sight? no, only attraction at first sight. love takes work. do you believe in ghosts? no. are you afraid of the dark? absurdly! it stems from creepy pastas and true crime. do you sleep with stuffed animals? one... do you regret anything from your past? many things! I don't like to think about things I regret, let alone talk about them. what is your aesthetic? tryhard pianist who tries to sing with a funky haircut? edit: haircut is less funky now, would describe as soft grunge what are you currently wearing? day 1 of working on this: an athletic shirt that's never been exercised in, skinny jeans, platform leather converse, and a handmade (not by me) beanie. day 2 of working on this (revising): an oversized camp t-shirt, skinny jeans, the same platform leather converse, and the same beanie. what is your dream job? actually skilled music writer and producer. do you have a 'catchphrase'? nope, just characteristically talking too much. what is (are) your lucky number(s)? I don't have any, but the number 69,420 is always nice to see. do you have any song stuck in your head? some BTS and Hamilton songs to clarify: not a song that is a combination of BTS and Hamilton although that would be pretty dope
thanks @Sweaternerd ! wish you were still here; you seem very dope. music: natural light - porter robinson more random TMI I found this in a note in an old project. idk how old, but I find it amusing it's really- long don't waste your time TL;DR: wow I'm an edgy teen and I hate existence say something. do something. be something. be HAPPY. love yourself. wait no, love others- be selfless. but love yourself. but always consider others first. but don't forget you time. always put yourself first. you matter. because you are kind. you are kind because you put others first. which is why you should have you time. but always put others first. despite the fact that we are throwing directions at you in every way we can, we have absolutely no idea what you should be doing. or what we should be doing. we will judge you no matter what you do. we will also judge ourselves no matter what we do. despite the fact that we are, to the naked eye, obnoxiously and admirably sure of ourselves, we actually have no idea who we are or what we should be doing. i do not want to live. no matter what i try, i am sure that i'll get in the way. i am not flawed, broken, or damaged, because those words imply that something happened to transform me to be this way. it did not. i was created this way. burdened with no reason but to entertain myself when i am finally considered insane. i do not want to die. if there is no god, then where will my existence go? will i be in an intangible realm of consciousness, feeling paralyzed because of my familiarity with tangible freedom? if there is a god, what side of its judgement will i be on? will i be in a cage of torture beyond my current knowledge? here i am interrupted by them- the umpteen humans, each of whom you might call my love. when I see each of them, for some separate moments, i feel joy. but by choosing one to commit to and eradicating my chances with the others, i am trading many small joys of shared glances, accidental brushings of hands, and possibly understood loaded sentences for a confessed and announced love. is it worth it? how will i ever know unless i make the trade? but deep down, i know that it does not really matter. this short happiness will not last. it is not fair to my loves to make commitments that i cannot uphold.
