yay another stupid vent lets go I'm happy, but it never lasts long. The "big sad" might be gone, but yet scars remain. I thought life would be better after, but my ego is still terrible. I refuse to fix it, thinking I can fix it myself. I'm wrong. I'm still mean towards my friends, I can't help it. How do I fix it? I can't I'm too far down I'm too far I thought I could fix it I'm in student council, I want to quit. I WANT TO. I didn't expect to get in such a high rank. I want to go back. I don't like this. My teachers recommended me for "honors" in Middle School. Mother told me it was the highest rank (for students). I hate that. I don't want to be in the honors. School is tomorrow, I'm stressed. YMCA is after. I'm going to be stuck in there for hours. I wonder how long I will be in that hell hole. I'm already at school for 7 hours+, so why make me stay longer? I hate this. I want to be 18. I want to live alone. I want to be out of school. I don't like people controlling me and telling me what to do. My gender, I want to be no gender. I don't like my gender. I HATE MY GENDER. Men get more rights than women. Women are stupid these days, trying to seduce boys. Most of my OC's are non-binary, as I don't like either gender. My mom is banning me off the computer after 3:00. She says I am on there too much. What am I expected to do? I have nobody here for me. I'm alone. My school friends are slowly drifting away from me. "Entertain yourself," she says. How? I spent more than half of my life on the computer. "When I was your age, I used to play with toys, so how about you play with your toys?" she says. I don't know what I am supposed to do with my toys. She doesn't let me skip the day (napping) either. If I make myself blind from the computer, then I do. It's fine. I can easily just "unalive" myself. If I burn in eternal pain, then I do.
Sound: Undertale - fallen down, but you have been separated from reality. 6/17/22: im doing great and okay now ^^
