just flag
im still alive without allan. but i don't smile as often anyomore. the thought of him being gone is the worst in the world. i hope no one in the entire world feels the same way i do. it hurs so bad. random mood swings and panick attacks and head aches. it feels cold. i want everyone to be happy but it's hard being happy myself. i lay around anywhere now. i randomly collapsed in the store the other day. they kicked me out because i didn't wanna leave. i just want everything to be normal again. it was like nothing else in the universe mattered. wish you guys could have met him.
