me: hey guys im gonna try to post more often! :) you guys: cool! glad to see you come back! *like 2 months go by without anything* (WARNING: EXTREMELY LONG RANT AHEAD!!! ill try to seperate it up with "-----"'s but i felt the need to say something important and i encourage you all to read, if you find the time.) ------------------------------- SOOOO uh for context with the drawing: around 5 monts or so into quarantine i had an existential crisis and binge-watched the moomins... help im relapsing XD ------------------------------- things have been.... well im not gonna sit here and lie to yall and say its been good. ive been in a not very healthy relationship recently (in fear of being too upsetting, i wont go into detail. besides its not really resolved yet, though im sure you guys would love to hear another depressed teenager whine about their problems on the internet for attention XD) but dont worry abt me. i know how lucky i am to have the support system i need. but my anxiety around mental health issues have been spiking *WAY MORE THAN USUAL* so if you come to me with a comment like "ive been having a rough time can you be a shoulder for me to cry on" ill be very likely to ignore it. im usually much more open about this kind of thing but ive already snapped and yelled at enough people simply because they asked me "are you ok" and i dont wanna put any of yall through that. ----------------------------- on another note: im just gonna put this out there for anyone who needs it: 800-273-8255 this is the national s*****e prevention hotline. please please call it if you or someone you know is going though a rough patch. this isnt a joke. look, im no professional on any of this. im sure someone will @ me in the comments telling me im doing something wrong, but if this helps at least one person rethink what theyre doing or saying, i feel like my whole life will be fulfilled. also, theres no shame in distancing yourself from certain people. no matter how much you think they "need" you. no matter how much they threaten you or themselves. if the things they say make you feel uncomfortable and like you cant handle things on your own, direct them towards a better support system, and take some time to focus on your own mental health. please. be a snufkin. "every now and again, just for a little while, i need my space." and the people around you should respect that. -------------------------- that is all. i will not be making any more posts about mental health for a while, or responding to comments about mental heath. its just been a lot and i feel like i needed to say some things. thank you.
