(tw for my trauma) ok so like ive been having therapy for the past few weeks and i decided to finally talk about my trauma after like 5 years, and also coming out to my therapist. i was kinda messy with coming out and forgot to mention i do feel fem sometimes (im genderfaunet) but never fully fem,,, (thats my bad ill make sure to tell that to them) also context for my trauma: somebody did things to me that i didn't consent to,,, don't wanna get into it. but anyways after i explained my labels and stuff she said i don't necessarily need to label myself and it's kinda a waste of time looking for obscure labels (ik it sounded rude, but i tried to see her point and not take it to heart) but she also brought a very interesting point to me. i guess ever since the trauma happened i guess i started to make this new persona, this person with more confidence, who can stand up for themselves and for what they believe in, almost like this new person to separate the person i guess i really am? i guess what she really was trying to say was "is this REALLY you?" and i don't know how to feel about that i'd like to think ive done this out of my own choice and not because im hiding but it might be but then again whats wrong with that? but then again i should work more on my REAL self then just this made up person ive made in my head i don't even know anymore for now im just gonna not identify with any labels so i can find out who i really am i guess?
