hii lol as u may know, my mental health is big poop rn lmao will b taking a semi-hiatus so please be patient while i get my crap together !! this is for a number of reasons, important ones being: 1. breakup !! this is like the main thing lmao -- i broke up wit a friend which created a domino effect resulting in me cutting ties with like 7 others haha i really dont know how to cope because of alexithymia, or even how to feel or whats ok to feel?? so yeah i recorded (and scrapped !!) a bunch of songs sob so uh yeah and an explanation for those ppl who just got blacklisted/removed from my life lmao im sorry !!! like super sorry like idk whats happening and i did it out of panic and i may be slightly insane or crazy i think lol,, went thru a period where i was convinced i was dying aa uhm you didnt deserve to b blacklisted out of the blue, but if you are friends with fun person who i broke up with, i rlly wanna talk to u abt this !! like u guys r prolly my closest friends and its most likely jealousy or smth snshsnjsn idk uhm im most likely not gonna talk about this beCAUSE IDK HOW TO <\\3 alexithymia rlly gets me sob 2. owed art/artblock !!!! hi there uh because of my breakup (i cant rlly pin this on anything idk) I LITERALLY HAVE SM TO DO NOT LIKE "oh yeah oh em gee ive got 2 bustshots omjomj so overworked !!1111!1!11!1!!1!1!!1!!!!!!" but i added the math and skimmed over and i have at least 35 fulls, 20 halfbods, 40 busts/icons and abt 20 customs in total for otaps PLUS MUCH MORE LIKE TRADES N STUFF (im not joking this is genuine math ive done) also building on this, when i it 1k im gonna move accs !! the decision is made <3 or like once i finish my otaps because imma bet i hit 1k before i even finish half lmao,,, in the event i do finish owed trades and payments -- ill prolly just enter dtas n stuff !! like guys i swaer im being overworked like every day i get one more confirmation from some ota FROM LIKE 3 MONTHS AGO WHAT with me like offering 7 fulls lmaoaoao so yeah !! when i do move ill tell u, give hints and notify friends w instructions n stuff if they wanna find me <3 3. moving schools !!!!!!! YEAH LOL SOCIAL ANXIETY KICKS IN so lol i spend (1-3 years, not giving away age lol) in a high school (haha australian terms) and then suddenly we move houses and whoop dee do get accepted to some prestigious school SSOB NO ONE ELSE IS GOING THERE AND IM MOVING FROM A SCHOOL WITH LIKE 300 KIDS TO 3000 I KID U NOT :thumbsup: so yeah thats happening again ty for being patient with me !! lmao im a mess everyone take a shot when i miss an apostrophe uhh gl me u need it
tldr -- lilac needs to get kitty ass off the couch and scrape together motivation and mental health