16 weeks. 16 weeks to get my life together. i have 16 weeks to keep my grades up, to be able to participate in end of year activities, and just to be able to enjoy life before it gets all crazy with summer activities, and school again. over the last few weeks i've done some reflecting. i have no interests, no obsessions, no passions, no hobbies, literally all i have is hanging out with my friends, watching gilmore girls, music playlists, crying my eyes out, baking lots of cookies, and snap filters. like- what do i do with my life, i have no idea. before i leave school for the year, i am going to find something i like to do, something to enjoy, and improve myself. i also realized- scratch just isn't for me anymore- i've outgrown all of this- all the copycats, all the FAKE people and drama, i really don't need this in my life anymore. it doesn't even feel fun anymore, it literally feels like a chore, and i don't want to do it anymore. i am fully aware i promised i won't leave, but if i have to break promises for my self benefit and happiness, that's something i'm willing to do. i'm going to start putting MYSELF first. i've been taught doing that is selfish and not humble, but WHO CARES. i've neglected myself for far too long now, and i want to make a change in my life for the better. i suffered so much last year with mental health- you can check that project out if you want more info, but i'm finally healing, and it feels so great. i don't want another relapse, so i'm really going to try to be the best version of myself and change my mindset. so without further blabber, here's the takeaways. i'm leaving. for good. the ONLY time i will be active is to communicate with family members. they will be the ONLY people i talk to. the last takeaway is- the next 16 weeks, will the the most i've worked in my entire life. it will be the most difficult, but also the most rewarding. thanks for the memories, support, and fun, it's been nice, signing off, sofie you can follow me on pin if you want to keep in contact: sincerelysofie_
