So I’ve been thinking and stuff And now I have a pretty big announcement I guess So You guys probably know me as “Rainbow unicorn art happy kid” But that’s literally the personality I started scratch with in the very beginning just to get popular,, Because people like happy people more than sad people But Actually I’m like a lot different than that And I hate hiding myself from people So please Forgive me for that and ask me questions About myself and I’ll answer them Unless I feel like they are too personal or anything like that But it’s basically a qna,, So ask me anything from if I actually like waffles to my favorite fandoms to what brush I use when drawing Update thingy 2,, So I’ve been feeling really self-conscious lately Like about everything that you can possibly think of,, My weight,, what I look like, people talking about me, people excluding me, anything else. And I feel a lot of anxiety right now I should probably talk to a therapist But I can’t Because it’s Covid and I would get people sick or they would get me sick Plus I just don’t want to go spout all of my life to some random person that I don’t even know that probably doesn’t even care So I just want to take a break Like a pretty long one Maybe Like from a day or two to a month Just to improve my mental health But like This is my only way to talk to anyone else but the mirror So it just like Has a lure that I can’t get away from So don’t even know what to do I want to talk to someone,, But like I can’t And I would spout to my friends But I have so few and I used to have so many but then I vented to them and they just ignored me,, And I don’t want to lose any more friends So I don’t even know anymore Announcement thingy 3 So I feel really pressured right now I entered all these otas and raffles and I made adopts and I did so many things But I just I have too much I don’t feel motivated At all And I would drop payments But the ones I entered,, I feel really attached to the characters And I just don’t want to make the person feel sad or anything if I quit And I just I don’t know,, I just want to be able to relax But work fills my entire day To my week To my month To my year And I just can’t But I want to But I don’t want to And I don’t want to take the characters for free Because they are worth something They all have a special place in my heart,,,, And I really want to own them But It’s just not fair for you And I’ve put up with so much thats not fair,, I don’t want anybody else to feel that Announcement 4 So What I’m saying is I’m probably not permanently leaving And I just You can tell how hard my life is right now By the fact that I’ve said I would leave permanently 3 times now,, It just shows how addictive this site is It’s not healthy And I want to go away,, But I can’t And I have friends here Who are legit my only friends. All my other friends are forced friends Like we’re family, Our parents keep taking us to parks, Etc I have no real world friends I just feel so lonely
