Anyway vents Im honestly doing this because I need to let it out and i bet that only i saw this so im doing it for myself not for attention Recently I haven't exactly been a good friend I try to get attention to get noticed, but all I end up doing is make people hate me to the point they keep a safe distance from me I make people feel pity for me And I hate myself for that I realize only to late I only have like 1 friend left, because all the friends I had have been growing away from me and making more friends not including me I always wanted to ask the teacher if I could stay inside during recess, but I have seen others ask and she said no I wanted to keep a distance and just cry But then I will get the attention in another way I don't want to And then the crying turns into more than an hour long because I think about my imperfections I don't want to make people pity me People understand literally everyone but me because I am scared that people would start bullying me for being so insecure Im sorry you had to read this, I just needed to say it really badly
