i hate my looks i hate my personality i hate my voice i hate my art i hate how i can't focus i hate how i act i hate my impulsive thoughts, words, and actions i hate my feelings i feel like i'm not good enough i'm not smart enough i try i really do why do i procrastinate? why is it so hard to just do everything on time? why is it so hard to concentrate? why is it so hard to control my emotions? why am i so hypocritical? this is why i make people mad i don't think before i speak i say the most horrible things out of impulse when i don't mean it i don't know why i'm so overrated my art isn't even that good why do people look up to me? most of my projects are just remixes i can't even code correctly why am i like this? why? i wish i wasn't me