im so sorry

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i'm so sorry. i feel so disconnected from everyone here in the aesthetic community. i dont know why i feel like this but i do. in a old rant i said i didnt want to be a trend follower i wanted to be a trend starter, but i dont know how to do that. everyone else has amazing og project ideas and my og project ideas are really boring. i dont have the talent with thumbnails and banners as everyone else does, it's true and everyone knows it. i tried taking breaks. tried to stop pushing myself to do so much. but now i feel like it's time that i leave scratch. my name isnt serena. im not saying my real name for privacy reasons and thats how "serena", my online life, was created. now all the rants were true and all my advice came from my heart but i created an entirely different person online then i am irl. im so sorry. im so sorry i lied for months and months. serena was such a pretty name and i decided to use it and be some 16 year old with experience on scratch because i wanted people to come to me if they needed anything. im the mom friend, it's what i do (give advice) and i didnt think people would come to me if i used my real age. im still a teenager, so im not some old person stalking kids on the internet. i dont have blue eyes. i have brown eyes. i have dark brown hair, not choco brown hair. im so sorry i lied to all of you. i'm a fake. these are individual notes to each of my friends i made on scratch who have motivated me for the longest time to be the best i can be and hype me up even when i didnt deserve it. (no order) @fvloski - noia noia, i lysm. you were my first ever friend, and you were the first person i considered as my best friend on here. you are like a sister to me, i'll never forget you. i'm so sorry i lied. i understand if you hate me. you are so talented with everything you do even if you dont think so. you are such a huge inspo for me and im sorry i am leaving you when your going through stuff. im proud of you for getting this far with everything going on in your life. @daintyrose - dani dani, i've loved connecting with you through keefe. you have improved aesthetically soo much and im so proud of you. i loved matching with you and being part of the meme team with you. i'm so sorry i lied. - addie addie, you are so talented. your personality is so fun and i am so glad i met you. you are a big inspo to me and everyone else. i wish you the best in your scratch and irl journey. im sorry i lied. - b / bella bella, i loved matching with you. you always ended up making me laugh or smile and im so grateful for you. you are such a sweet person and anyone would be lucky to have you in their life. im sorry i lied. - moomoo / mel moomoo, i've loved being meowmeow. its such a weird nickname and i love it. we dont talk much anymore and im sorry. i love the nickname moomoo and dont let anyone bring you down. i'm so sorry i lied. - rai rai, we dont talk much anymore either. we used to have super long chats about literally anything and i miss that. i'm sorry that im leaving and i hope for the best for you in your future irl and on scratch. i'm so sorry i lied. - lily lily, we connected super quickly and i love the new username. we dont talk as much but just know that i am super happy that you were a scratch bestie. i'll never forget you. i'm so sorry i lied. - della della, you always hyped me up on everything. thumbnails, banners, literally hyped me up for the fun of it. i love your personality. i've loved talking with you and watching you grow as a person. im so sorry i lied. to all my followers: thank you all sosososo much for everything youve done for me. you all made life seem okay to live. my problems at home became less dramatic and heartbreaking when i hop onto scratch and get to see so much feedback on my content. as for the assumptions, i obvi wont be posting the project so i'll make a super quick project answering them all later. i'm leaving because 1.) scratch has become addictive. im constantly on here, or on pixlr e creating stuff. i never spend time with my family anymore cause im constantly on here. 2.) it's so stressful. i remake everything for every project. my files are messy cause i have files for literally everything to help me stay organized. it stresses me out even more. 3.) believe it or not all the messages are hard to get through. i try to reply to every comment and ik i dont have to do that but i feel rude if i dont. im sososoososos sorry for lying to all of you. i hate myself for it and i wont blame you if you hate me too. i wont be deleting my account i just wont be active anymore. - [insert name here]