hey there so recently ive been inactive, as youve probably noticed yeah so a lot has happened since the last time I posted and im not one to beat around the bush so lets just dive into it Recently I’ve been losing motivation to post. Not draw, post. Not because of theives. Not because of toxic people. not because of anything induced by anyone but myself. Since I turned twelve, I’ve not been feeling well. not “well” as in sick, just not having the motivation to do anything, not even get out of bed now. And I know I have friends that love me; that care, online and irl. I get it. I just dont really care. it doesnt matter to me. they cant help me. my parents cannot help me. I cannot help me. nothing gets better. nothing will get better. its all going downhill. my relationships, my happiness, everything. nothings left. dont ask me if I’m “okay’. I’m not. I’ll save you the time and energy. And dont get me wrong, I love to draw and have fun through friends while doing it. I just. cant put it out there. the only reason I post on DA is because it gets noticed. I can actually feel happy about it through validation of others. And I know its wrong. Ive heard it a million times. “you shouldnt care what others think of you”. but I do. and I cant stop worrying about what they think. “if you never get up, theyll never get a chance to judge.” thats what it tells me. every. morning. just. LEAVE
