I JUST REALLY TO VENT SO YEAH- Having panic attacks every Friday because of your French teacher is not fun. Fluffing heck, today I cried so hard I thought my eyes are going to pop out. Not to mention the my fluffing ex friends who are basically *trys to think of a word but can't* Right, so I'm the only person in the year group with ginger hair and I'm also a demigirl. Whenever I walk past them they all shout "DEMI!" over and over again and one of them when they're with their other friends (Who also bullys me) say "Ewww! Imagine having /ginger/ hair," and she knows I'm there and that's why she does it. I don't think they relise that now I'm paranoid of every little thing I do. For example, I don't like having my hand up in class anymore in case they bully me for getting the awnser wrong. I h@te the way I look and I wish I could move schools. I haven't told my teacher about this, my parents, not even my therapist because I'm scared of what my ex friends will do to me and I'm worried that my teacher won't support me even though I know my therapist and parents will. Sorry for those long paragraphs I just couldn't hold it in any longer </3
Also sad because I just read Gray WIng's death Also, in case you're wandering why I'm not friends anymore with my bullies, here is why: I have a friend who I was friends with since I was about 6. She recently moved away to Greece, but we keep in touch due to Roblox (and phones-) and my friend group were talking trash about her, and I pretended to join in. Eventually, one of them said to her "Fall in a d1tch and d1e," which was not okay to me, and the other hacked her account. I said I've had enough and left. I wonder if things could be different now if I just stayed UPDATE (27/02/22) Reading this, I feel, actually, worse. This is remembering how much pain, mentally, I've been caused. My brain forgets things a LOT, and sometimes, I just want to end this trainwreck that is life. Yes, I'm talking about k1ll1ng mys3lf. Seriously, this pain CAN'T go on any longer, it's actually /hurting/ me now, physically. If you know what I'm talking about, help, PLEASE.
