✧---------------------------☆---------------------------✧ OK. , ,, , , , . LOOKS LIKE IM. #stressedoutmylifeissodifficultmao I-…u h anywaysss. I. So i think it’s time to tell you! My grandpa is dying from cancer! and he’s one of the most important things to me . It’s way to hard on me. Not just me- my whole family ! ! it just makes me wanna sit down and cry . I don’t even know what to do about itt! =( We visit my grandpa’s house once in a while- and he lays on his cot / bed thingy. And when he turns his head and smiles. I just start getting sad , he doesn’t deserve this. It makes me wanna sob ! ! >:(( I just don’t know ANYMORE! i wish I was dead sometimes! i wish that i was the one in his position . Well, I love him sm . But i wouldn’t wanna go through all that pain . I’m really sensitive . II. just school. I hate school. I sort of want it to burn down someday ! I have track , and i don’t really wanna do it because of my hecking social anxiety. … . (when will i grow up ? ? LMAO) Everybody who’s joining are just- MEAN! i don’t like any of them there!! NO ONE. Ig it’s okay that i’m doing track .. i do love to run.!! :) Oh yeah , and my grades are going DOWNHILL :(( it’s so hard! I just don’t think i can handle any of the schoolwork i get . Not at all!! I’m so close to getting Fs in these classes. I DON’T WANNA GET HELD BACK THOUGH :( </3 i don’t wanna go through hell again . That’s not it! III. I dated this boy , but I broke up with him because he gossiped about me , made fun of me , judged me , wasn’t even there for me, and bullied the hell out of me. my mom and i reported him to the principal . (thank u mama <33),, and he never ever bothered me again. however- 2 years later (2020-2022 <3) THIS STUCKUP BARBIE NAMED BELLA COMES ROLLING IN FROM ANOTHER SCHOOL . Then those two bugs start dating each other. Wowzers- what a SURPRISEEE. Then this bella starts spreading a lotta effing rumors about me. liek duDE- if skewl already wasn’t treating me like flat out garbage.. So then,, my bsf ( emma ) starts s l o w l y being pulled away by bella and her friendos. it’s not fair. Why me,,? IV. friends are ANNOYING… Heyyyy! I love my friends! especially the ones i get on here <33 . But you have to admit that irl friends suck butt sometimes. Especially when your in a BIG GINORMOUS group like i’m in!! So thanks to bella and her stupid ex- yeah they broke up lmao, Everybody hates me. Thanks to them- my other friends think i’m weird. Like wow . :’DD All i’m left with is my cousin , her pick-me group , and my absolute bsf. OH ! and my friends on Scratch ;> but friends can suck - they really can . :’) V. My teachers. Yep.. they are not as supportive as i what i thought they’d be- they sass me for forgetting my homework . well , they can be nice about it at sometimes , but they just expect work to be done in like 5 FRICKING MINUTES.. VI. I have glasses. And don’t like to wear them . Hey ! That’s normal- right? I look ugly in them . And i love to express my outfits WITHOUT my glasses . but my teachers always embarrass me when they gimme these lectures on why i should wear them . IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE CLASS! i just start crying. in 5th period i did. and ofc- EVERYONE MADE FUN OF ME :D. life is hard , especially when you get criticized for being insecure all bc of wearing glasses. yUp. Ikr? Yep- yep. VI. this one is very important. Please understand- even if your homophobic , please try to understand . *dRAMatiC BrEATH** i came out of the closet . and my mom and dad are homophobic ! They’d absolutely HATE me if i told them im coming out!! :(( i’m scared , idk. my older sister supports the LGBTQ+ community. But - im afraid our relationship won’t be as exiting ! Or lovable. It might just be awkwardly severe . :// but my girlfriend treats me WAY better than my two boyfriends did - they treated me like white trash . however , my girlfriend would understand about anything i: support / wear / like / go to / go with / etc. You get it- don’t you? EDIT : VII. My dad used to be an alcoholic and had serious drinking problems . im so afraid that’ll happen again.. it usually happens in the summer when he has more time to hang with his pals and just drink beer. Then he would come home and just topple on the couch , and i would start crying . I’m scared for summer too … Well, when life gibs you lemons - you can’t just be expected to perfectly make lemonade- right?? thank you for reading :) so close to 100+!! so hyped :DD -averi lou pulfer ✧---------------------------☆---------------------------✧
