*Disclaimer* The song does not belong to me! This song was made by 'Cavetown' and is called 'Dysphoric'**
Nonbinary. Funny, isnt it? Not really. Not for me anyway. A few days ago my friend came out to me as trans, I'm really proud of him because he made me realise that I'm not cis either. Well, I've known that for a long time, and I'm very open about it online, but what people dont see online is that even when I act completely comfortable with my gender, I'm not. I often ignore the feeling that tells me I'm not a girl. I wear short skirts and makeup and I like the color pink. I'm cutesy and kind and speak in a high pitched voice because thats what I do to smother my feelings. Because that what people say girls do, and I have to be a girl. So I lie to myself. But I've learnt that ignoring the feeling doesnt make it go away, it makes it stronger. So here I am, making some silly scratch project to post online about my stupid dysphoria and about how fake and useless I am. But thats ok. I'm not really coming out to scratch, I'm not coming out irl either, I'm coming out to myself and I want to celebrate that somehow. So I guess I just want to say to other people questioning their gender that its ok, and that there's people who adore you, people who are like you, you arent alone. Ignoring the feeling doesnt make it go away. Embrace it, because its not going to dissapear.
