i dont wanna cry-.. i am anyways.. i cant even go to sleep to try and stop thinking cause i have to do a stupid assignment.. i cant stop thinking about my partner-..the things they do.. the things they say.. I'm not good enough for them.. they know that.. they deserves someone who can say 'i love you' without hesitating-... in the past few days they have admitted to keeping stuff from me when we normally dont-.. they said that one of our friends was their only emotional support to me and called me unsupportive.. they don't ever care when i give them something and then they turn around and say no one ever gets them anything.. they constantly use the wrong pronouns from me and then ignores me if i mess up one time... I'm tired of it.. I don't want to keep crying over someone who doesn't care.. its not like ill ever be the first pick ever.. they like, almost everyone i know chose my brother and wanted to be with him before they ever thought i was a person and not just a puppet they control to make them laugh... im forever 2nd place to my siblings... always will be.. some people arent meant to win.. ever.. im one of those people...
