ok sry for another rant but i just cant keep it in anymore. when im chatting w/ u guys and my fwens, i seem all happy and stuff. but really, i dont feel like that at all. my brother gets to play video games over this springbreak while i- im stuck w/ H O M E W O R K. like its spring break and their not even letting me rest for a second. i never get to play these days- my family is hard on me too. my brother is failing his grades but im not and my mom is like 'u can be the perfect child' and i look like im ok with it but really im like omg stop controlling pls give me freedom and at night i cry about things i should worry later on (my parents d!3!ng and me never seeing them again, etc) and i think thereis way too much pressure on me but i dont know how to express it to others i even thought about talking w/ my school counselors but im too scared to talk to them too and im just worried what my life would turn into sometimes i think about being a singer and shes like 'stop singing and do ur hw' and no one really knows abt these feelings other than my rlly close fwens (fen fen- i talked about this once w/u) and i just dont know what to do- i want to make my parents happy but about the worrying things too early i think about it and if i ever be successful will they even be there with me to see it or something im just scared and idk what to do.... thanks for reading my super long rant. until next time... grace
