Every time I tell an art teacher that I have trauma (this has only happened twice, I act like it happens every day) they're always like "Oh, that really sucks, man... But Im sure you could make some really cool vent art-" Which is amusing to me Like... You WANT to see my vents? Yeah? Hold on I have like fifty pieces that are specifically about somatic flashbacks-
I trust my art teachers more than therapists. That might be because I've had three (thats wrong its more than three) traumatic experiences in therapy and zero traumatic experiences in art class Mx Olivia? I'll talk to her, she's got C-PTSD. We had a whole little venting session with each other. I was like: "Yeahhh, so Im constantly terrified that I'll end up being like the people that hurt me." And she was like: "I was like that for a long time too. And it sucks cause-" Amber? She may be in her like... 50s or 60s or something. But shes really accepting. And she has dyed hair, so. So I'll talk to her- very vaguely. But a person trained to help me? Nooooooo Thats scary Especially because one time I was talking about some trauma and she goes "Holy- Sorry. That was unprofessional. That sounds like a LOT to deal with." Anyways I started laughing and that made me feel better, honestly. So I kind of wish that happened more often. I mean it does, but they usually go like. "W o w. Wowwwwww. WOW. Wooooow." Therapists say 'wow' a lot when I open up to them. ????? Um?? Confusing much??? How am I supposed to respond to that? Also, how do you respond to someone saying that your life sounds like a "hellish nightmare" Like, wow, okay. Wasn't expecting that. Especially not from somebody who's significantly older than me... like in their 30s It was honestly kind of validating though.
