wow i know what ur thinking-- APRICOT POSTS PROJECT AFTER LEAVING 9 MONTHS AGO?? and yes i left. i havent been on this account till that day 9 months ago. but i just...missed it here. - INCOMNING RANT- i officially joined scratch on an account called lorium basically a year and a half ago or so. it was the first ever time i actually made an account on the internet for something (besides school gmails ofc). and at that time, well, i had been getting into digital arts and animation. that account was...fun :] i made a few friends, learned about maps and things and dtas and otas and enjoyed life on scratch for that 2 months. and just pointing somthin out rn--ive probably got some sorta anxiety issue bc of how anxious i get all the time and stressed and etc etc, so that hit hard having all those map parts to do. aaaaaaaand then i just got so much stress and began to not like being on scratch. so i left. and thus goes that account... now.. ab a month or 2 later, i made this account. apricatto :] and that was the best thing ive ever done (internet related). gosh--i loved it here for the 6 months i spent. at the beginning, i got into dtas and otas, started actually designing characters, and my art improved a ton!! and i made real friends on here that were probably the best part of all of it. i made ocs that i got super attached to (yes i see u jay and tommy), and i really started using a sketchbook to draw them whenever i felt terrible. i remember every day, waking up and being happy because i could open up my computer and read the messages from my friends on here :] but... ig we all know what happened next. i got overwhelmed by stress and things, and i left without a WORD. AND I JUST--WHY DID I DO THAT? at the VERY LEAST I COULDVE WAITED A WEEK BUT NO--I LEFT RIGHT AWAY. and...I REGRET THAT SO MUCH. i didnt realize that every day after that i wouldve hated myself for doing that because i missed being on here, and i missed talking to my scratch friends. so for the past 9 months, ive been thinking about scratch almost every day. ive been missing it so much because i made the wrong decision . not leaving, but..leaving without a word. i feel like i didnt give myself closure on this account, to think through my descision. i feel like i let everyone down, including myself. especially one person on here--bear1614. bear was probably my closest scratch friend on here. i loved talking to her, looking at her art and knowing that there was someone in this world who really liked my art too! :] (And also bc of her i perswaded my family to watch stranger things and now im obsessed with it lol) she was the person, including a lot of other scratch friends, that i missed so much. i feel like i let her down by leaving and i really wanted to talk to her on scratch again. - RANT OVER - so...your probably wondering what im doing with this project. and...im not coming back to scratch. i would just leave again, and i dont want to let people down after getting their hopes up. but--here's what im doin-- im gonna go back to scratch for a week!! :D gonna give myself closure and talk to my friends on here again, and i will make myself happy doin a ton of DTAEs!!! im doin this bc my bday is in 3 DAYS!! i just wanna be on scratch for a lil as almost a birthday gift for myself!! ill be very active, post art and not do map parts tho, but i will chat and enter in tons of dtas because i miss them lol -- and yess. i got a new art style and art improvement haha i did that art on my chromebook with a trackpad during school so its super rushed but it was nice to draw tommy after 8 months of not drawing him. :] BTW IM NOT DSMP OBSESSED ANYMORE GUYS IM CHANGING THAT RANBOO PFP I LIKE GRIAN NOW LOL aaaand im gonna unshare a few projects ig lol
