i feel so unmotivated rn it's been about a month since i last posted a real proj. now i legit just trashpost daily. to top it off, i made this acc: @randomjen- for trashposts, random projs, vents, rants, etc but i still post all of those on here instead. i kinda feel like i'm becoming more and more distant to my friends ... and i've been feeling really lonely lately. it's like some of us don't talk anymore... i feel like some of my friends are just gonna go *poof* and i'll never see them again :( i'm such a mess- i'm a pro procrastinator and i have a 10 page long to do list. i'm not making any progress in anything. my academy assignment was due 3 days ago, oreo might be getting impatient because my part of the collab still isn't out yet, i haven't been posting, the easter special and 100+ bc isn't out, i'm already halfway to 200, you get the idea. also i'm busy with irl stuff. can y'all plsplspls prevent me from getting to 200 too quickly? i'm serious- i can't get to 200 otherwise everyone will go bonkers cuz weeks ago i planned a banner contest for 100 but now it's 200 and it's still not out. just try your best to keep me at 100 for now i'm currently doing *really intense* state testing. i'm prob gonna flunk really hard. i gotta do it for 2 weeks straight :/ 1 week is over at least ... the two people who really stayed with me thru it all is mia and maria, ilygsm <3 fei, oreo, grace, milky, rose, and june are the best :D ty for everything you've done for me!! taking another hiatus won't help with any of this... i need somebody to help me... but i'm all alone... i want to quit scratch but i don't at the same time ... i need a therapist. seriously i do- or at least a real friend who can really help me, but that ain't happening because the universe literally said no. imma try to take down my trashposts but i gotta do my math hw too i'm procrastinating right now somebody please help me depression is gone but stress is not what do i do i gotta do my hw aa which one do i do first why is nothing on my to do list checked off yet help me i need a therapist am i just making you guys feel bad i'm sorry i'm cold and i want more matcha haha everything's fine i added 5 more things to my to do list how do i help myself i shouldn't keep doing things alone this is too long i'm just making you guys feel bad ok i'm ending it here
