so i'm literally still waiting for the new computer. my family has just been really busy and it's not our top priority right now. just wanted to let everyone know that i can't wait to fully come back and you miss so much and there will be a huuuuuge art dump. like biig. and my people are veyr yes. and i'm working on a song and i can't attach a recording right now because techincally i'm supposed to be taking a test rn because i missed it today because i went on a trip to visit a college instead of going to school lol but here are lyrics from different parts of the song. It starts out with "You burned our music/But the melody still echoes in your head/You'll never escape it/It intertwines/With every song you head/Oh isn't it a shame, dear?/Our tune has become your only truth/Though I am now apart from you" This section shows how even though somebody left someone else in a relationsihp they are now the one is hurting and can't get the other out of their head, but the other person, aka yk me, has like created this distance mentally from everything that was. then there's some fun little doo's and stuff and then later it goes, "You were my past/But he is my future/You're my first love/And he'll be my last/Yeah, sure I cannot see to forever/Still I know that this will never pass/But if it does my heart will be like broken glass./" then "I fell away from fallin' for ya/And fell into his arms/So, I don't want to go back/How can you not know that?" which sort of reflects how i've found like other people and a s specific person who have replaced him in ways. that i don't need him. btw the use of you WERE my past BUT he is my future compared to you'(A)RE my first love AND he'll be last is very intentional. Because it implies that there is more to my past now then him and that my future is so different from how things were. but he'll always be my first love and nothing will ever change that and it's the same kind of love that i have for someone else because like. yk. and don't come after me saying kids my age don't know how to understand the difference between love and like. I've liked people before. Intensely. But trust me. This guy. The one it's sung too. He's different. I truly loved him and always will love him. It's different now. I've chosen myself. But if he had chosen to stuck around i never would have left. everything we had means the world to me... :)
