Vent: ============================================= So Uhm...Probs my most hurtful in a way ig (said to me, my most hurtful is when they beat me but that's a story for another time-) I used to have depression..it was getting to the point where I wanted to make an act of KMS every single day, but then I was inspired to stop. But now I might be getting it back after 2-3 weeks of being extremely optimistic. The reason for this is (gonna sound a little disgusting) someone in our household clogged our toilet I guess. So when I went to flush it (because its the normal thing to do) and it flooded (pretty disgusting) and again, like any other normal human, they would freak out and scream, well my dad heard me and saw me, and thought it was me, when clearly I did nothing wrong and he screamed at me. But he didn't just scream like any other dad would do when they're mad, nooo, my dad cursed me out, he called me names a parent should never, and I mean NEVER say to a child, and even called me a mistake. So yes, like aNy oThEr human, I cried, because it hurts to be called a mistake. But hey! 've been called this by my family countless times, so who even cares?!?! Not me... So I was forced to clean it up, and do other bone-breaking chores (when I say "bone-breaking" I mean I almost broke my left arm). Then 8 hours later my dad apologizes, and yea, when parents apologize they're supposed to sound sincere and you hear it in their tone, right? Well, my dad didn't. Instead, he sounded like he was being forced to say it by my mom so then he wouldn't get in trouble with her. And I know he didn't mean it because he came back an hour later and did it all over again, cursing me out, calling me names, and even a mistake. I'm so tired of being treated this way. I wish it could change, but no matter how hard I try, no one in my family ever listens to anyone so it's hard to communicate with us. I'm sorry if I sound vulnerable but I had to get this out because it was hurting me. This is why I hate my parents, is because they never try to be "my parents", they don't try at all.. :(
Songs: (These are edited audios) ================================= Juliet - Cavetown I Can't Handle Change - Roar (I made it a sped up) Idontwannabeyouanymore - Billie Elish Sadderdaze - The Neighbourhood (my fav song ever) All Time Low - Jon Bellion Dancing with your ghost - Sasha Sloan Thank you for listening..
