i cant decline an offer bc my dad will think that im thinking im superior to everyone else even tho its the opposite of what i actually think so everyday i hear "enough with the 'i know better than you' mindset" when i clearly dont think that
not to mention i think later that im a disappointment, a failure, im irresponsible, im disrespectful, im not good enough, everyone hates me, all my friends are fake, no one cares abt me, all that and more :) <3
