Hey. I know it’s been 8 months, and a lot of you have unfollowed. That’s okay; this account has a horrible history to me, and the actions I took had a negative impact on my mental health even a year later. What I did on this nightmare profile haunts me to this day. I should not have been allowed to be on the internet in 2020/2021, as I was not yet responsible or mature enough to make executive decisions. I hurt people, hiding behind this cringey username. Copying: I am deeply ashamed of my actions, even though I have privately contacted Spook myself many times to apologize. I copied @-wootermelen’s ideas. I am ashamed. I made a carbon copy of their OC with a different color palette and other minor changes. I added to their story world without their permission. I made a studio based off one of their popular studios, though xe is not in control as they have moved accounts. I compliment bombed, I spammed, I started arguments. It was all for attention, because I didn’t know how to do all of that for my own as I was an overthinker new to the internet. That was no excuse for what I have done. Please go show @-wootermelen some love, he is a really chill person with a lovely personality, creative stories and beautiful art. Faking OCD: While it wasn’t as much faking as believing I did have it, it is still unacceptable that I did and I should have gotten an actual diagnosis instead of what I did. I believed I had it because I have what I would describe as compulsive equality. I need pressure on both sides of my body to be equal, and if they’re not my anxiety peaks. It also happens with objects around me, especially when my mind is wandering. Sometimes I erase a blank spot on my paper or peel off my phone case in a certain way to try to prevent that anxiety. I have intrusive thoughts as well, though those are because of anxiety and possible trauma from five years ago that were not professionally treated until recently when I started with a new therapist. While I may have some symptoms of OCD, I do not have OCD myself. I didn’t realize the damage I could’ve done to that community if this were a platform such as Youtube or Facebook. I regret my actions, though they were not out of attention seeking or wanting to have that. Still, that is no excuse. Thank you for reading this through. I sincerely hope you might be willing to join me on , where I have both improved art and improved personality.
