mural didn't get his chicken nuggets today :( he's cranky --------------------------------------------------- art: @wonderfang coding: @-Moontale- oc: mura audio: i deserve this by rebzyyx i can't even pretend to like this old friend anymore this is [partially] a vent. i know, i should stop whining about the whole situation- but i've finally come to terms with the resentment i hold for the person i had to leave behind. first, they targeted the person i'm closest to. i regret doing nothing, but i was scared of them--to a degree i shouldn't have been. then they were horrendous to a few of our other friends that spoke out, and yet they had the nerve to say about their first target ''i can't forgive her for what she said to me''. YEAH WELL, the thing is, the friend was speaking out against THEM and that's the only reason they even held onto it. they wouldn't have gotten defensive for anyone but themselves. time and time again they ignored peoples' troubles without a care in the world, and then expected said people to care about theirs. they completely have no sense of regret for anything they did, and i was stupid to think they'd change at that point. they act as if all these things came out of nowhere when people were screaming in their face. then they act shocked when they lose almost everyone i get they harbored no ill will necessarily. but people who can do this unintentionally are even worse to be around. it just still hurts, you know?... they also didn't keep the conflicts within where they belonged, they openly brought the vents elsewhere and made everyone who walked out on them out to be toxic. none of it came out of nowhere. and i watched it all happen, said nothing to them in fear of losing this person. this feeling is what i got for it, and i don't think it'll leave. worst part is that even without the people who left because this ex-friend wasn't the best person, the ex-friend just went right back to being happy. they did it for each person who left, one by one. they didn't care because they still had SOME people to back them up. i don't blame those people, for the record. the toxic person in question is pretty ''charismatic''. they just can't see past themselves, they can't see that they hurt people. blind as a bat. the moment someone would speak up, it'd just go completely cold... ''not my friend anymore'' or something along the lines, is what this ex-friend would say whenever someone spoke against them. just instant hatred. i really regret getting attached to this person, but i'm too easily manipulated needless to say, they're gone now. out of my life, they can't hurt me or my friends and if they ever try to bust their way back into our lives i won't just stand by & let it happen a second time
