Well hello there... Haven't posted any projects in a while, did I? Well here I am after a long time to be honest. School is overwhelming when you don't have the will power to do anything. X_X Remember when i ranted about my life in older projects, specifically about "them" and being lonely? Well me neither till I looked at one of my other projects, "terrible platformer" (i think in 8th grade). I realize that's been a problem for a while (now I'm 16). But there was this one friend (I do mean friend) I like to reach out to a lot (we call her Kai on the internet, but I know her IRL). She is the coolest person I know (funny enough) and I'm thankful she is a friend. I also have bad self worth too, genuinely i don't think myself as that cool in all (i'm not interesting or useful in my opinion XD) and I for sure don't know if i can last long in the world on my own (like how do people thrive in this society, I'm so shocked). However I have been told that I'm a nice and awesome person, never thought about that in my life whatsoever. While I hold doors open for others (usually) I don't really think about it, specially after the one time in April/6/21 [still i hate thinking about that to this day, i for sure broke someone on accident from my complete stupid blindness. While numb about it now, it's still a bad mistake man, and wow my mental state declined during the time. I wonder how Her is doing nowadays]. But since I vented to Kai of (most) of my thoughts, my mood was lifted up by a lot and I'm thankful for that. While yea i might think about my life still (with being lonely, an unknown future, or just being single in all), I have someone who I can talk to now. Oh yea and "them". If you did not catch who they are, they are what i represent my family. My sister is now cool (and not the crier i knew back then making all my game consoles get taken away by my mom) and my father is fine, but I hate my mom still. Like she brings me most of the troubles both in the past and now. Like she seems to know that the belt thing is bad (oh yea you seen that on the mother in that one game?) but still has a yelling problem. And the fact that my mom took something i cared for (little black penguin the plush) in late july of 2019 just found a way to break me entierly. At least it's back now (febuary 2021) but he did not seem the same, nor my perspective of life itself. And the lonely thing, Kai is helping with that too and that's nice. Well now that I talked about my life, what now? I literally don't see me creating any more scratch projects anymore, despite being "good" at it back then as time is a thing. And also I don't see myself being successful in cartooning because i won't get a diploma for it. All I want is to hang out and help out my friends I care for, and also own a cat and draw comics and stuff. I perfer to see my friends thrive more then I do because I honestly don't care about myself if I don't have self worth XD. Makes me wonder how everyone is doing now, including Brady (never seen him in a while unfortunately) and even other people i met, like everyone on scratch that I seen or met, or how about the people i made friends but couldn't contact for some reason or another. I enjoyed my time on scratch, working on projects as well as I could (and looking back at old content before i used vector, really bad graphics a child would make + bad difficulty leveling, even boss battles (my first published game that took a while to make lol) is horrible for how long it takes, even having cheat codes to remove the challenge in whatever there is in there). I just don't feel like doing anything anymore on scratch (in terms of coding), but wow there are a lot of unshared projects left unfinished. I still choose to stick around to see how everyone is doing though, specially and (btw u ok man?), and maybe even if he ever makes stuff out of scratch. ...Oh the credits? Music is something i end up making on beepbox, but I just can't make anything exciting on it XD. I make things depending on my mood, includes what i end up drawing. You think i should post comics on scratch instead? While I like drawing, i haft to make it family friendly because [scratch]. i also have contemplated posting this announcement too.
